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Next year I will fall in love with myself and the world and life again

Seperti biasa gue menyiapkan tulisan yang gue posting di akhir tahun. I had a lot of worries, fears, and troubles plaguing me this year. Makin gede, gatau kenapa gue makin sering ngerasa takut. Fortunately, I have friends who helped me to find a good direction as a human being and to think positive thoughts. They send out meaningful calls or messages to me. There are times when those calls or messages comfort me. And I think they give me strength. Hal tersebut yang buat gue mikir always have deep conversations with the right people. Gue anaknya mageran. Sampe kadang kalo ada keluhan gue mager cerita ke orang lain. Jadi efeknya ga bagus buat diri sendiri. Tapi semenjak kuliah gue mulai terbuka, dan gue cerita hal menyenangkan atau keluhan ke teman terdekat gue. Because I think a single conversation with a person who has the same soul as you is better. Banyak hal positif dan masukan serta kritik yang gue terima dari teman gue. Iya kalian ga salah baca, KRITIK. Kritik membuat gue bisa ja...

Living a boring life is a great life, tho!

A life of routine A life where I don’t do anything interesting When I am doing the same thing again and again. The way I have spent my time has been very predictable. It has a pattern to it. From Monday to Friday, I get up > go to work > Attend meetings > Eat lunch > come back > Read the day’s news > Eat Dinner > Work out > Read > Talking to someone > Sleep. Same thing. Again and again. On weekends, I have a much freer schedule but parts of it involve going to caffe, watching movies, writing, reading and catching up on lost sleep. I remember I talked to one of my friends saying that, “I think I live a boring life lately. But I don’t hate it.” My friend responded, “That’s okay, there’s nothing wrong with it.” Life led me to something very normal and a little boring. I could try to change it, but it is the perfect life for me (right now). I do realize everybody’s life is boring. On the majority of days, the most interesting thing that can happen is a convers...

What I learned in 2022 so far

When I was 18, I just wanted to be 22 karena gue pikir keren seperti yang diceritain Taylor Swift di lagunya yang berjudul “22”. Ternyata emang tidak seindah yang dinyanyikan Taylor. I thought the 20’s were the happy season and I thought I knew what 20-something me would wrangle from life. Of course, I was dead wrong. I now know that I’m clueless about what my future self is capable of . Tapi satu hal yang patut gue syukuri karena ga nyangka bisa menginjak umur di atas 25 (umur sebenarnya tetap dirahasiakan hahaha) dan sehat wal’afiat. Alhamdulillah! Akhir-akhir ini gue lebih sering memikirkan hal ga berguna yang udah gue lakukan sepanjang tahun ini. Iya bener, kalian ga salah baca kok. “Hal ga berguna”. GA BERGUNA! Bentar mau ketawa dulu wkwkwkwk. Gue punya alasan tersendiri kenapa mikirin hal itu. Alasannya yaitu karena gue mau tau hal berguna apa aja yang gue lakuin, secara terus menerus atau ga, yang mungkin berefek sama kepribadian atau mungkin juga ke pemikiran atau mental gue. ...

I wrote myself a love letter

Dear Debby, You are beautiful. You truly are. Even when you don’t believe it, it’s true. You are unique. One of a kind. So, stand tall, look back at that reflection and smile. Watch those big eyes light up. They sparkle when you do. Love your body as it is. You look damn good. Eat anything that you want; rice, hamburger, pizza, noodle, meatball, beef, Indonesian, Korean, Japanese, or western food. Eat a lot. As much as you can. But make sure, you don’t throw it up after eating it. You are strong. You know you have to keep on moving. And you do. Just one foot in front of the other. You have the strength to push through the heavy and the tight. I know that it’s so hard for you. But, you’ll know someday that all of it is nothing for you. Keep smiling whether you mean it or not. Soon you will. Focus. Breathe. Move forward. Always move forward. You are a force. You are a sophisticated woman who has lived through many adventures. You’ve worked hard your whole life. You can take care of yours...